I stood on the drop off to the lake looking at the dark blue water. It was said to be the deepest water in the land. If one entered the lake they were swallowed whole taken down into the darkness, into The Deep.
Tranel had taken the option of stepping off the drop off into The Deep leaving me behind. Left to wonder if I had some part of his decision to commit suicide, if I could have changed something and he would have walked away from the drop off rather than walking over it. I thought we had a good life, we talked about problems, and he never showed or indicated that he was dissatisfied with any part of our life. I hadn’t even had the opportunity to tell of the babe nestled under my ribs.
Why, why, why did he feel a need to enter The Deep? I pulled the threads of our life apart, examining the waft, weft and weave of what we had together. I could find no indicators. Did I miss seeing something preying upon him, did I not know the man I loved.
“Why!” I screamed across the lake as I fell to my knees weeping.
Maybe I should just step off the edge myself remove the weight of blame, the anguish, the heart rending sorrow I feel.
A cold shadow blocked the sun. I looked around my face red and blotchy and saw a beautiful woman standing over me. Her skin was translucent shades of blue and green, water rolled off her from hair falling like a waterfall. She reached out and took my tears onto her finger tips.
“You weep for my latest guest” the words flowed from her.
“Why, why did he leave me?” I gasped.
“Child, his time had come to leave this earth, you and your babe are the gift he has left the world. He could no longer carry the weight of his world weariness and the darkness that shrouded his soul. But you, you carry the worlds light. He stayed as long as he could because your light shone in his dark. It is not your time to enter The Deep you still have much to do in the world. The babe you carry is the Dark’s enemy. You carry a seed for the future and you were loved every day. Tranels time had come and he understood.”
I stared up at her beauty and felt water flowing through my emotions washing away the hard blocked areas.
“When your time comes I will welcome you with open arms but today you walk back to the village. And as the tears flow as they must remember my words.” She bent and kissed my head then dissolved into a mist, thousands of droplets of water disappearing in front of me.
I rose to my feet and stood on the drop off to the lake looking at the dark blue water. It was said to be the deepest water in the land. If one entered the lake they were swallowed whole taken down into the darkness, into The Deep. Today was not the day I would step into The Deep as much as I wished to. I knew I would be back many times and maybe she would return.
